A long bit of vent.read at your own risk?
I may feel embarrassed after I say adjectives of this but really at this point I don't have much else to loose. So let it begin...I enjoy become a regular at this site lately, because I have been trying to conceive since December and I interested in tips, education, advice, and to hear about others TTC. My husband and I had our first son ending May. My son was born with a birth defect call CDH and we found out he was sick at 26 weeks in gestation.
We moved away from home for two months (a month before he be born and a month after) to seek treatment and my son passed away 17 days after he was born. We have both be devistated and been missing him terribly. Sometimes bad things arise to good people. We understand this. I don't want to utter the cliche things people do say like that I do regard of him every day and that no one will ever replace my son, no child, no pet, nothing could replace him. But for the sake of letting you know I am sane and not trying to replace my son, I mention those facts.
I have a child for a reason - I want to have a family, be a mother. And because I am self-seeking, I do want a child of my own, from my own body. There is something important to me about going through the whole cycle of nouns, conception, pregnancy, post pardam recovery, midnight nursings, teething issues... I do not want to wait for 5-10 years for a child to 'become available.' *Sigh*, selfish and impatient. One hours of daylight I would also like to adopt a third child. I just struggle with time. I required to be a mom last year and I am, but my son is not here. I don't get to see him, hear him, feed him, hold him while he cries. I am soooo have a hard time being around my friends' kids, because they are not mine. I am jealous of my friends because they capture to be a mom every day (do mom things, no mourn) and I do not.
I have vowed that before my subsequent child, no matter how I have him or her come into my life that I will cram about my body and understand the miracle, the biology of what it takes to concieve a child - I simply think every woman should know. I was excited and not as knowledgable about my body and have children the first time around. I thought this plan would help me take time to be ready to concieve (in tally to spending lots of time in counsel and talking about my son, my grief).
I am an avid charter (Taking Charge of Your Fertility is a book that my friend give me to help me get started). I have be trying since December (ready to conceive I should say) charting since January and without expecting to succeed. I know it takes time! It's 6 months later!! I am getting so impatient! And I enjoy been watching other people I know get pregnant so seemingly efficiently! Our house is ready, our lives are ready, our finances are ready! So come on!
My husband and I are both within the military. It's been hard to be around each other this year and subsequent year we expect one of us to be deployed. I was truly hoping to conceive this year!! I will have served 8 years when I retire next year, and I plan to retire so I can spend time next to my family. I am 27, 28 this September - physically I am not old, but mentally and through life experiences, I consistency that I am ancient =) Really now, my biological clock can't be snoozed any longer.
*Sigh* Patience is something I just must continue to own. I am due for AF this Saturday. This month we (DH and I) happend to be together near my time of ovulation, and I have felt so enthusiastic and that this would be our month. I can't reach up there and supervise to make sure the sperm and egg unite, I am not in charge of that at this point and this month is almost over, there is always subsequent month and the month after. I know other people have it worse than I do. I truly am grateful I have my existence, my health, my husband and friends.
Anyways, I feel better. I can stop going on and on. Any comments, questions, experiences shared are great. Thanks for reading/listening.
Best of luck to you TTC-ers. Have a virtuous one and thanks again.
you are not a careless mother. the baby you wanted to
give a great enthusiasm to, is in heaven with God watching down
on you and will simply keep good luck to you and your
husband.
I think after grieving, you should really try to hold another
baby. this is not replacing your other baby. this is adding
on to your loving, charitable family.
i wish you the best of luck and my heart is out to the both
of you for losing your little baby. May God embezzle great care
of him in heaven. R.I.P and Good Luck!!
(((((((((hugs))))))))))
RIP to your little soldier.
I hope you're both truly blessed with a BFP very soon xx
i grain for you so much after reading this.
it does feel better to vent and let it all out even more so beside strangers because they dont no you, there is no awkwardness no nothing..
i have also be TTC for about 8 months and recently i have found out i hold an inactive thyroid which is playing around with my hormones so hopefully i will be on the right medication soon and things will fall into place.
Fingers crossed for the both of us!
XOXO
Hi Hun,
Sorry to hear roughly your loss - I always think it's a good entity to vent and get things off your chest - It makes you quality better!
Good luck to you and hope you get your well deserved BFP soon.
xxx Source(s): TTC since Jan 09 - No BFP yet x
aww hunny =( It's impeccably normal to feel those feelings, and I don't devise any of the feelings you described could be classified as selfish or impatient! I am really sorry for your loss...I can't even imagine how it must hurt, but hold your head up. (I know, you've probably heard it a bunch of times...), and keep trying! I craving you lots of babydust & good luck to both of us TTC
I decision you the best of luck and I am sorry for your loss.
I know the feeling of loosing Children I have lost 3 children now My 3 1/2 yr prehistoric son, 2 1/2 yr old daughter (28 weeker) and 6week old baby adjectives due to genetic problems. I am how ever blessed now to finally have a healthy 14 month feeble son but there is still a pain and emptieness inside me from the babies/children we have lost.
Just know you are not alone.
Answers: Oh hunnie! I’m really really sorry for you loss. I couldn’t imagine going through that experience. You are so strong to be handling it this well. I resembling your mindset. You are staying as positive as possible when most people would just hunker down and take the hitting that life sometimes thrusts upon us. For that I admire you more than you know.
First off, you are not careless at all for wanting your own child. I completely understand. My husband and I TTC for 2.5 years and we were at a wits downfall. He suggested adoption one time and I broke down because as much as I would love to give a child a proper home, I also wanted to experience everything for myself. So I do understand the inevitability and the want. You are not alone in that.
I also know how it feels to be jealous of your friends who are pregnant anc do own children. I was there. I nearly gave up numerous times. I even threw up my hand and told God that I was losing control and he needed to take over. Which, although I am not really a religious person, I estimate that helped. To let someone else (even if they aren’t real) take over.
Now, I am praying that you are pregnant as we speak, but save, then do not give up. You will get your time, and I know that sounds cliché, but it’s the truth. I am a firm believer contained by everything happens for a reason.
If for some reason you aren’t pregnant, why not see a professional in the region of this. One of my good friends is an army wife and she absolutely adores her doctors, so I know nearby can be good ones on base. But why not get their push for. Sometime you need that extra help to get you in attendance. They could do insemination on you where they can literally place the sperm into your fallopian tubes, and they can also discuss different options with you. I really have a sneaking suspicion that it might help, and it may teach you some stuff about your body. I know my infertility treatments qualified me loads about my body.
Just know that whatever happens, you are surrounded by our thoughts.
Best of wishes always,
Kristen
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We moved away from home for two months (a month before he be born and a month after) to seek treatment and my son passed away 17 days after he was born. We have both be devistated and been missing him terribly. Sometimes bad things arise to good people. We understand this. I don't want to utter the cliche things people do say like that I do regard of him every day and that no one will ever replace my son, no child, no pet, nothing could replace him. But for the sake of letting you know I am sane and not trying to replace my son, I mention those facts.
I have a child for a reason - I want to have a family, be a mother. And because I am self-seeking, I do want a child of my own, from my own body. There is something important to me about going through the whole cycle of nouns, conception, pregnancy, post pardam recovery, midnight nursings, teething issues... I do not want to wait for 5-10 years for a child to 'become available.' *Sigh*, selfish and impatient. One hours of daylight I would also like to adopt a third child. I just struggle with time. I required to be a mom last year and I am, but my son is not here. I don't get to see him, hear him, feed him, hold him while he cries. I am soooo have a hard time being around my friends' kids, because they are not mine. I am jealous of my friends because they capture to be a mom every day (do mom things, no mourn) and I do not.
I have vowed that before my subsequent child, no matter how I have him or her come into my life that I will cram about my body and understand the miracle, the biology of what it takes to concieve a child - I simply think every woman should know. I was excited and not as knowledgable about my body and have children the first time around. I thought this plan would help me take time to be ready to concieve (in tally to spending lots of time in counsel and talking about my son, my grief).
I am an avid charter (Taking Charge of Your Fertility is a book that my friend give me to help me get started). I have be trying since December (ready to conceive I should say) charting since January and without expecting to succeed. I know it takes time! It's 6 months later!! I am getting so impatient! And I enjoy been watching other people I know get pregnant so seemingly efficiently! Our house is ready, our lives are ready, our finances are ready! So come on!
My husband and I are both within the military. It's been hard to be around each other this year and subsequent year we expect one of us to be deployed. I was truly hoping to conceive this year!! I will have served 8 years when I retire next year, and I plan to retire so I can spend time next to my family. I am 27, 28 this September - physically I am not old, but mentally and through life experiences, I consistency that I am ancient =) Really now, my biological clock can't be snoozed any longer.
*Sigh* Patience is something I just must continue to own. I am due for AF this Saturday. This month we (DH and I) happend to be together near my time of ovulation, and I have felt so enthusiastic and that this would be our month. I can't reach up there and supervise to make sure the sperm and egg unite, I am not in charge of that at this point and this month is almost over, there is always subsequent month and the month after. I know other people have it worse than I do. I truly am grateful I have my existence, my health, my husband and friends.
Anyways, I feel better. I can stop going on and on. Any comments, questions, experiences shared are great. Thanks for reading/listening.
Best of luck to you TTC-ers. Have a virtuous one and thanks again.
you are not a careless mother. the baby you wanted to
give a great enthusiasm to, is in heaven with God watching down
on you and will simply keep good luck to you and your
husband.
I think after grieving, you should really try to hold another
baby. this is not replacing your other baby. this is adding
on to your loving, charitable family.
i wish you the best of luck and my heart is out to the both
of you for losing your little baby. May God embezzle great care
of him in heaven. R.I.P and Good Luck!!
(((((((((hugs))))))))))
RIP to your little soldier.
I hope you're both truly blessed with a BFP very soon xx
i grain for you so much after reading this.
it does feel better to vent and let it all out even more so beside strangers because they dont no you, there is no awkwardness no nothing..
i have also be TTC for about 8 months and recently i have found out i hold an inactive thyroid which is playing around with my hormones so hopefully i will be on the right medication soon and things will fall into place.
Fingers crossed for the both of us!
XOXO
Hi Hun,
Sorry to hear roughly your loss - I always think it's a good entity to vent and get things off your chest - It makes you quality better!
Good luck to you and hope you get your well deserved BFP soon.
xxx Source(s): TTC since Jan 09 - No BFP yet x
aww hunny =( It's impeccably normal to feel those feelings, and I don't devise any of the feelings you described could be classified as selfish or impatient! I am really sorry for your loss...I can't even imagine how it must hurt, but hold your head up. (I know, you've probably heard it a bunch of times...), and keep trying! I craving you lots of babydust & good luck to both of us TTC
I decision you the best of luck and I am sorry for your loss.
I know the feeling of loosing Children I have lost 3 children now My 3 1/2 yr prehistoric son, 2 1/2 yr old daughter (28 weeker) and 6week old baby adjectives due to genetic problems. I am how ever blessed now to finally have a healthy 14 month feeble son but there is still a pain and emptieness inside me from the babies/children we have lost.
Just know you are not alone.
Answers: Oh hunnie! I’m really really sorry for you loss. I couldn’t imagine going through that experience. You are so strong to be handling it this well. I resembling your mindset. You are staying as positive as possible when most people would just hunker down and take the hitting that life sometimes thrusts upon us. For that I admire you more than you know.
First off, you are not careless at all for wanting your own child. I completely understand. My husband and I TTC for 2.5 years and we were at a wits downfall. He suggested adoption one time and I broke down because as much as I would love to give a child a proper home, I also wanted to experience everything for myself. So I do understand the inevitability and the want. You are not alone in that.
I also know how it feels to be jealous of your friends who are pregnant anc do own children. I was there. I nearly gave up numerous times. I even threw up my hand and told God that I was losing control and he needed to take over. Which, although I am not really a religious person, I estimate that helped. To let someone else (even if they aren’t real) take over.
Now, I am praying that you are pregnant as we speak, but save, then do not give up. You will get your time, and I know that sounds cliché, but it’s the truth. I am a firm believer contained by everything happens for a reason.
If for some reason you aren’t pregnant, why not see a professional in the region of this. One of my good friends is an army wife and she absolutely adores her doctors, so I know nearby can be good ones on base. But why not get their push for. Sometime you need that extra help to get you in attendance. They could do insemination on you where they can literally place the sperm into your fallopian tubes, and they can also discuss different options with you. I really have a sneaking suspicion that it might help, and it may teach you some stuff about your body. I know my infertility treatments qualified me loads about my body.
Just know that whatever happens, you are surrounded by our thoughts.
Best of wishes always,
Kristen
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